Something Different

I wanted to post about something a little different than I have in the past. I wanted to share some of my dreams, and how I am beginning to see how I can realize them. While I want to do this though, I don't want to share too much...but I figure this is my blog and I can write whatever I want. 

So as of the past week I've really started to look at my future and what I want out of it. I'm majoring in business right now, getting my associates degree at NWTC. I finally think that this is the right place for me and I am very happy with my class. I also decided to take photography starting next semester...and I've got a few ideas of what I would like to do with those. Now I know I want to be a mother at some point once I find the right guy and finish school and all that and I want to be able to be there all the time or as much as possible for my kids, I don't want them to have to be in daycare. So while I kinda mold some of my dreams around that, I don't let it hold me back. So at this point I'm thinking I could do a small photography business while staying at home...or maybe own a small boutique...I've also really liked the idea of being in a partnership with one of my friends and owning a juicing franchise! These are all just crazy ideas floating around in my head. 

Now I totally get if you all don't care and don't see a point to all this but I do. Ever since I started to look to the future and at doing things for MYSELF I've been so much happier. I've been able to really see a future for myself and my mom, felt a little more in control...and finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. I feel kinda like my dad is helping me to realize all this..and to realize that I can push myself to achieve my dreams, and that they aren't stupid! That maybe one day I will live in a suburb of san diago or somewhere in South Carolina and own a juicing franchise with my friend Dakota and maybe I already know my husband and maybe this is all a lot closer than I think...but for once in my life this isn't a dream that I will put behind me. I want to chase these dreams and I want to achieve them and have more dreams! 

So I totally realize that this post is kinda all over the place and I apologize but I've felt more alive this past week than I have in awhile...and maybe that's because I'm realizing that while my dad is gone, life moves forward and I am still allowed to dream...and that my fate is not sealed. I love the quote, "some of your best days havnt even happened yet" because it's so true...I've got so much life to look forward to and dream about that it's hard not to start to feel happier.